Unlike the other citizens of Oceania, Winston questions the authority of Big Brother. He realized that the government brainwashed everyone, and that many things they came up with were never logical. Winston felt their force "battering against your brain, frightening you out of your beliefs, persuading you, almost, to deny the evidence of your senses", and grasped what Big Brother was able to do (82). Winston wondered if Big Brother was able to control everyone's mind to believe sayings completely out of common sense. Winston's independence branches from when he knew that he was right and the Party was wrong. He put courage in himself here to defend the truth, no matter what the government would say to prove him wrong. He decides to put an effort against Big Brother at this point in order to fight for his own rights.
A girl that Winston had been suspicious about bumped into him intentionally and gave him a note. Winston was almost certain that she was part of the Thought Police, and believed the note was a threat from the government. Deciding to open the note, "though he knew very well the danger of showing too much interest", he read the note to see that the words "I love you" were permanently inked on the paper (110). This left Winston shocked, feeling uneasy because he barely knew the girl. New thoughts circled in his mind about her, leaving him troubled that the Thought Police may find out. Again, Winston attempts another act against the government knowing he could face punishment from it. Opening the note here showed that Winston can make decisions on his own as well as his bravery to hide secrets from the Thought Police.
With Winston's new partner in crime, he is able to intensify his outrage towards Big Brother. He committed an act that "was a blow struck against the party", with no pure love or lust (129). The encounter with Julia was just another violation that would anger the government. Winston comprehended that the simple desire to do this with Julia could break the Party up. This was another step towards his individuality because the Party views this action with much aversion. The effort against the government would add more tension between the followers of Big Brother and Winston.
Winston was never fond of his wife because they shared so many differences between each other. His wife, Katherine, would swallow any information the government gave- whether they were true or not. This left Winston uneasy every time he was with his wife. If she was smart enough to figure out that his opinions were completely unconventional, she would've immediately denounced him to the Thought Police. All of this led Winston to a day when he and his wife were alone together. He thought about killing her, but never did. Reflecting back on the day, "I would have, if I'd been the same person that I am now", comprehending how much resentment he has now for anyone who favored the Party, even if it was his wife (137). Thinking about killing his wife shows Winston's ability to act as an individual even though the government rules against anyone's own opinions.
Winston knew no matter what he did, he would be caught sooner or later by the Thought Police, so he continued to rebel against the Party. When he found the bedroom above Mr.Charrington's shop, Winston understood that he had to keep it safe and hidden from the Thought Police. He decided it would be his love affair room, one that he'd share with Julia. The room was perfect and secure, and with no telescreens in sight, he had "privacyâ€¦ a very valuable thing [that] needed to be concealed at all costs" (140). Using this room was the biggest risk Winston would face, but it showed his deepest passion to defend himself and his beliefs. The act here shows Winston's struggle against Big Brother because he knew how easy it would be to get caught by the Thought Police. Using this room depicts Winston's growth of new independence and separating himself from others.
When Winston and Julia both agreed to meet at O'Brien's place, they already faced severe dangers. Neither of them realized though the risk that came from their honesty to O'Brien. Winston and Julia agreed they would commit to "anything which is likely to cause demoralization and weaken the power of the Party", which by no doubt, consenting to this would cause severe punishment (176). This shows their fearlessness to speak out about their feelings toward the Party. Winston develops a false sense of hope here that he would be able to fight and succeed against the government with O'Brien by his side. Winston shows his struggle against the government here because expressing his feelings to O'Brien could cause him to be denounced to the thought Police.
As a rebel, Winston was already forced to perform many tough tasks in order to achieve his goal- to cheat and destroy the Party. Successfully obtaining the book from O'Brien, he began to read the book in Mr.Charrington's shop. Everything the book contained showed Winston's ideas in words. But not only did he enjoy the book, he "appreciated the fact that he was reading, in comfort and safety", with no telescreen in sight (189). Reading the book gave Winston new insight, further helping him to understand the truth behind the Party. This gave Winston more assurance in himself and his opinion. He also knew though that if he got caught reading the book, he would automatically face severe punishments. The book Winston read contained almost all of the beliefs and opinions that the Party was against.
Winston, even after being caught, continued to stand for his beliefs. O'Brien forced Winston to reflect back on all of his previous actions. Even after knowing all of the pain he must endure, Winston stuck to what he knew was right. He comprehended that even if "the Party says that it is not four but five, then he still must say four" (257). Knowing the agony involved with staying true to his own judgment shows his ability to defend his opinions from the Party. Winston's independence is all that he longs for because he knows that everyone has the right to think for themselves. Enduring the pain every time he speaks what he feels illustrates his determination to fight and succeed against Big Brother.
Winston fights for as long as he can in order to get his ideas across to the Party. Even though it was inevitable that he would fail, he tries one last time to defend his beliefs. Winston's "true feelings toward Big Brother" was still full of hatred (292). O'Brien understands and puts him through a final test, which he fails to comply with. Winston always tried his hardest to stand for his own independence, unlike everyone else in is community. Even though he didn't succeed, he suffered through much difficulty to preserve and defend everyone's right to think and speak what they feel. Knowing that he would end up like everyone else in the end, he wanted a final word for freedom before accepting the rules of Big Brother.